Naturalle Drea

Okay so I keep a lot of things offline because I don’t like sharing them but some things you should share because it could help or benefit someone. I’ve talked about my wellness journey on here, my goals and all but not everything. I tend to internalize a lot and not talk about a lot because it has been traumatizing and also just scared to share it. So here it goes. Also want to offer warning about this post as it deals with some sensitive topics.

You know once you have your first child and then get the question of when are you going to have another one? Sometimes you don’t know the answer to that one because you are unsure if you want more or there is an issue with trying to have more children. Most of you may know, I have a wonderful 14 year old son (and we are deep in the teenager trenches, please pray for us) and did want to have more kids. Back around 2018, I discovered I was pregnant and we over the moon about it. It was early and trying to hide things wasn’t easy. It was short lived because soon after we found out, I had a miscarriage and it was pretty devastating. I never talked about it as only our parents knew we were expecting at the time. I didn’t know how to even process it. So in 2020/2021 we went to see a fertility specialist to see if something was wrong and found nothing wrong at all. The doctor said that sometimes couples have trouble trying to conceive after having one child.

Fast forward towards the end of 2024, I discovered I was pregnant again. As happy as we were, I was so scared because of what happened last time. I tried not to think about it and moved forward with thinking about this new addition and that things will be okay. One day I was at work and went to the bathroom and saw blood and started panicking. I left and my husband and I went to the ER. I thought I was having another miscarriage but I wasn’t. It was some bleeding due to the pregnancy but they saw a large fibroid there too. I had no clue it was there and felt like I wouldn’t have known if we weren’t pregnant. There was chance the pregnancy wouldn’t survive because of the fibroid but there was also a chance that it could survive. I was listed as a high risk pregnancy because of the situation and my age. One day we went in for an ultrasound and the baby didn’t survive. We were devastated and the miscarriage process was the absolute worse and I honestly was a bit traumatized by it. This is something else I never spoke about at all.

Now we had to address the elephant in the room, removing the fibroid. It wasn’t causing me any issues at all, no pain or anything. If we wanted to try again for another child, it had to be removed and also didn’t want it to grow any bigger and start causing issues. The thought of having surgery terrified me and I avoided it until a year later. I didn’t have any issues between that time but it seemed to grow a little bit. I decided to get over the fear and have the procedure done. I went through every single possible emotion and feeling that you can think of. It was my first time ever having surgery and didn’t know what to expect, what it was going to be like and all. As it came to the day of the surgery, it was too late to back out. I was nervous the whole time. Thankfully everything went well with no issues and the fibroid was removed. I honestly didn’t like being under at all but I did it. As I am writing this, I am recovering and off from work. The first few days were difficult but the pain started to subside as the days went on. Just taking my time to heal and get back to myself.

Now we are at the point of changing up the diet and actually being more active. There is a possibility that the fibroid may grow back and I want to try to prevent it as much as I can. I may talk about the fertility journey, not too sure but I’m just thankful that I am over that hurdle. I honestly was scared to even share any of this but I am glad that I did. It may help someone that may be going through the same thing. It is important to talk about these things especially regarding women’s health and reproductive systems.