As we get closer and closer to the exit of 2021 and entrance of the new year, I randomly thought about the theme I set for myself. I had thoughts of being resilient, fearless and just manifesting positive vibes. It has changed so much and I grew away from this theme. I’ll go more into detail about that in a another post but here is another lesson I learned in 2021.
This year I’ll admit, I did not take care of myself that well and I feel some type of way about it. I only have this one body and I didn’t do a good job of taking care of it and keeping it going for years to come. I want to be healthy and in good shape for my son and if there are any future kids that may come along. I haven’t kept up with doctors, dentists or wellness appointments in a long time and I feel ashamed to be saying that right now. I told myself I wanted to get to therapy this year and haven’t done any research or made one appointment. The biggest thing is the not eating. Ever since I started this new job, I would literally be working from the time I clocked in to the time I was done with all of my work. I would barely eat breakfast…it would just be some coffee and would eat lunch super late or not at all. I was just used to being able to snack at my desk, eat breakfast and lunch at a decent time. It was just a super shock and huge adjustment for me. I am still trying to work through this and determined to make it better next year.
I also haven’t worked out in over a year which is not good. I am so used to be super active and moving my body but since Rona hit and the gyms were closed, I just lost all motivation. Of course I’ve gained some weight and started thinking negatively about the way I looked but did nothing about it. I know I can’t just jump right back into working out and have to move slowly back into it but I really want to get back into this so much. I am not loving how much my body has changed and if I want to fix it, I have to make moves and start doing something about it.
I have so much work to do when it comes to learning to take better care of myself. I am thankful nothing major happened to me this year and I’ve been okay but I’ve noticed the changes and they are not good. Like my other lesson, I need to make myself top priority and put myself first.