I had no clue today was World Mental Health Day so I figure I would move this post to today. Mental health was something that was not too important to me until a few years ago. I wasn’t putting myself first a lot and it was starting to take a toll on me. I don’t know why I’ve been so hesitant to go to therapy or talk with a professional but I want to make that happen soon.
I am thankful I am in a good place today. I do have some good and bad days but thankful. When I was working at my previous job, my mental health was in shambles. I was dealing with so much and being in a toxic environment everyday was just taking its toll on me. I forced myself to show up everyday because all I could think about was needing money to support my family. I never took mental health days and I should of. I’m thankful that I am away from that place and in a better work environment. I do find myself being triggered daily with the actions of others. I am working through that but just thankful this work environment is so much better.
I am still trying to find that balance to have me time and take more time to myself. I haven’t been practice self care as much as I should be and just need to make myself a priority, not an afterthought. I can be hard when I’m working in a super busy environment, come home to my family, having to cook, clean, attempt to create some content, spend time with them and then I look up it is time for bed and I barely had a moment to myself. I can’t keep pouring into everything else on an empty cup or not refueling myself. It can be hard but it is so necessary to take care of yourself and not feel guilty about it.
I’m also learning it is okay to admit that you and things are not okay. For the longest time, I would just say everything is fine and internalize so much. I am learning to say I’m not okay, that something bothers me and just speaking up more. It is terrifying but it is getting easier the more I do it. I don’t want to continue putting on a fake facade and hiding the fact that I’m in shambles and not in a good place. I know at some point I will get to therapy and seek someone to talk to. I can say I am good and working towards being in a better place.
How are you? How is your mental health?