Naturalle Drea

Currently I brought my laptop, planner, junk journal and creator notebook upstairs in bed with me so I can “bed rot” and do some work. I was catching up on some Youtube and came across Monet McMichael’s video documenting 100 hours with no phone, no social media and no entertainment which was basically Monday-Friday which is crazy. Well the timeline of 100 hours because typically 40-50 of those hours I am at work and the rest I’m commuting back and forth, going to events, doing housework and all and it made my mind start turning with thoughts. Like are we using our time wisely during the week after working? I’m not finished watching her video but I like the concept of it because majority of us doom scroll to pass the time or for entertainment. I know social media for many of us is your life, your job, your income and it can be draining and a lot at times. It may hurt but sometimes you do need to take a break. I find myself doom scrolling a lot at work and at home which is not good at times. I just was doing it now lol. But the thing I saw in the 38 minutes I’ve watched so far is that she had a spare phone that she was filming on which I feel like made the whole things pointless. I know that is her job of being on social media but that content could have waited if she was trying to “re-program” her brain and reset. I’ll keep watching but I’ve only been following her for about a year or two and seems like she blew up pretty fast and just hearing her thoughts now about social media and life, I can see her stepping away from it soon. It can burn you out and take a toll on you.

I feel like I want to actually try this for myself but I’ll still need my phone in case of emergencies with having older parents but won’t log into social media. I feel like this will force you to think of other things besides scrolling and all.If I do decide, I’ll document and share.

I had another thought about 2 weeks ago when I was at another event. I was grateful to be there but noticed that I was the only person in the space with the lowest following count. It got to me as it always does. I know I deserve to be in those spaces but often feel intimidated as well. I’ve been trying to grow and start earning money and working more with brands and stuff but I feel like they look at your following count and also your engagement. I don’t have too many people commenting on my posts anymore but thankful for those who do and thankful for those who repost my stuff. But it can be frustrating at times and starts to get in my head. I’ve been told I have good content and all but at times it doesn’t feel that way and I hate it. I feel like I hold myself back at times as well and don’t really put my 100% into what I do in all aspects of my life…probably because fear still runs around rent free. But that is a topic for another day.

I’m still a work in progress and figuring things out. But now I’m about to eat dinner and finish watching this video because it’s an hour long. I guess I can update more on my thoughts in another post but hope you all are enjoying the weekend and have a great start to the week.