Naturalle Drea

So I just got back from a family vacation and it was so much needed. I’ve learned to not post everytime you go away for safety reasons but it was so needed. Now I want a pool in my backyard lol. It just felt so relaxing to float on a tube around the lazy river a few times and just look up into the sky and relax and clear your mind. It would have been nice if they let you float with a drink in your hand but I understand why you can’t lol. I really needed last week week to clear my mind and relax.

And funny thing is that I brought my laptop and notebook to catch up on some content and didn’t pick up either one which was a good thing, I needed that break as to why I didn’t have any blog posts last week. I’m still working on having things scheduled ahead of time and working ahead of schedule.

I did get some clarity on things while I was away on being in spaces where I am no longer appreciated. I’ve preached about that in the past but here I am still in these spaces I need to leave. I have been heavy on not staying in friendships that you don’t feel appreciated and feel one sided and staying in work spaces that you don’t feel appreciated in. I know my worth and know I deserve more in the workplace but won’t get too much into that but the friendship piece…..man

I didn’t know or think that friendships as adults would be this hard. It was so easy when we were younger but now everyone has a family, working, multiple jobs, other things going on and all but why is it so hard? I find myself questioning me and wondering what I did to certain people. I find myself being the one who is trying to schedule getting together and hang out and often find it quiet on the other end.Listen, if you no longer want to hang out with me or be friends with me anymore, please let me know because that is how I’m feeling. And listen I get it, we all have stuff going on but don’t forget about some of your friends. I just got tired of asking to hang out and haven’t heard from anyone since and that is a little concerning to me.

I’m trying not to drive myself crazy over this but just didn’t think adult friendships would be like this at all. I see other friendship groups that are thriving, taking trips together, always check on each other and all and I kinda wish I had that. I don’t think it is too late to find and connect with others and develop friendships but I start to think if I’m the problematic friend and some things need to be addressed with me. I don’t know but it just feels like now, I don’t have much of a friend circle at all.