I was sitting on my couch on a Saturday night and this thought just came to me about wanting more for myself. I started to think more about this as I was sitting on the couch and knew I needed to grab my laptop to write about it. This thought feels like it ties into my goals and intentions for myself this year because I want to focus on myself and and only elevate from where I was in 2021. I think this whole thought process started when I realized randomly that I don’t have a lot of full body pictures of myself. I’ve been in my feelings about my appearance and how I look lately that I just don’t take them very often. Also, it is hard to find the space in my house to take these pictures as well and don’t go out that much to capture them. I feel like my self consciousness holds me back from a lot and I need to start letting go. I am missing out on capturing so much because I don’t like my appearance or how my body looks.
I honestly deserve more for myself and need to stop holding myself back so much out of fear. I know I’ve spoken about self sabotaging a lot but I’m still doing it and I feel like it is ruining things. I’m not sure where all this came from but I want to work on stopping it. This goes with my life, creating content, wanting to do things and so much more. It is just needing to push past this fear. It sounds like it is so easy but its not. I’ve been dealing with this for so long, it is hard to pinpoint the origin of it. I know I will figure it out one step at a time.
It felt good to get this out and realize that I do deserve so much more. I don’t want to look back and have regrets about what I didn’t do for myself or didn’t do. I don’t want to live with regrets. I want to actually start doing more and being better towards myself. Again, this really aligns with my intentions for this year and feel like I’m moving in the right direction this year. Have you just had some random thought that made you realize some things about yourself? Let’s chat.