Naturalle Drea

I was going to keep the momentum going this week but I did need a little break after Blogtober. I’m just so happy that I made it all 31 days! I am currently sitting at my dining room table with a late breakfast of Starbucks coffee and a breakfast sandwich and it is crazy how they have all the Christmas decor and drinks out. The holidays are way too rushed for me because we are still in Fall and Thanksgiving is coming up this month. I already have my menu set, just need to start shopping soon. I know there are things I can get now and things I have to wait to grab so it doesn’t go bad. But I am so ready for Thanksgiving and then will be in full Christmas mode.

I’m glad that I took a couple day off from work because it has been a lot lately and I feel myself slipping back into that place where I don’t want to go into the office and dealing with drama. I haven’t talked much about my experiences of being a black woman in the corporate space and yes I have to put it that way because I’ve dealt with a lot. I have internalized a lot of my workplace traumas that I honestly need to get back into therapy for but I am just tired of needing to dim my light or change how I am to accommodate someone else’s ego. I’m tired because it makes me feel like I’ve been the issue the whole time and every place I’ve worked. All I do is come to work, do my job so I can earn my paycheck to maintain life and that’s it. But let me get off of this subject because I’m getting annoyed and worked up.

The world just feels so heavy right now and it can be a lot. It just seems like we are boycotting things left and right, government is still shut down and people are working for free, people don’t have their supplemental benefits and so on. This is all too much and shouldn’t be happening. Why is all this happening? All I can do is keep hoping things get better.