Naturalle Drea

I think we’ve established me being an over thinker but this thought is always in my head and just wonder about it a lot.

I am a religious person in a way, not as much as I used to be honestly and I believe there is higher power/being. I forgot who was talking about this but they said along the lines of “You have to be in a position to accept the things you are praying for” and that has really stuck with me for a long time. I don’t pray as much as I should be but I feel like there are things I’ve been asking for and wonder why I’m never in the position to accept them.

I’m very thankful for the things I have been blessed with and also the unexpected ones but just the things I’ve been speaking into existence, being somewhat delusional about, asking and hoping for just haven’t been happening and I’m wondering if I’m blocking those things. Am I not supposed to receive those things or just not ready for them? Have I not been doing the things to prepare? I seriously think about this all the time just about and that is where I get into these things of wanting to give up or not try for something anymore.

I try not to be so “Debbie Downer” and so negative but these are my honest, raw and real thoughts. I am a pretty positive person and always have that optimism that things will work out but at times you have to be realistic about things. It is amazing to have dreams and inspirations and all, nothing wrong with that and going after what you want. Always dream big and go after what you want!

I don’t know if this thought will ever leave my mind. I don’t want it to drive me crazy but I really want to know these things. Will I ever be in a position to receive the things I’ve been asking for? Hopefully one day I’ll have an answer for that.