Naturalle Drea

I am a really big overthinker just about everyday lol. I have all these open tabs and random music playing somewhere lol. I’m often in my head a lot about creating content, life, friendships, work and so on. There has been a lot on my mind lately especially with everything that has been going on recently.

I’ve been heavy on admitting when I am not okay and doing things scared. I recently applied to the Ulta Beauty Collective and that scared me so much. Even if I don’t get picked, there is always next year and I actually did it. Also when the Sephora Squad comes around, I am applying. It made sense to apply to both, I shop in both stores enough lol. Now this I’ll be more scared of because you need people to leave testimonials for you and I honestly don’t know if people will actually show up for me. I’ve been really in my head about support and people reciprocating it.

I am someone who wants to see everyone win and succeed and cheer you on but sometimes it is crickets for me. Not all the time but I just notice how others are supported and it makes me think about what I did. Did I not support you enough or be there enough? It causes a little jealously for me and I’m trying not to be envious and jealous of others. I’m learning to be there for me and be my own cheerleader. I feel it is necessary to always show up for yourself and be there for you.

Also, I’ve been seriously thinking about this idea I’ve had for a long time but again I’m afraid to put it out there. I don’t know if I’ll get responses to it if I decided to put it out on social media but I don’t know until I try. I may get the response I was looking for or will have to take a different route. You never know about something until you try. You have to do things scared and not wait until things are perfect. You may miss the opportunity.

So that is all I’ve been thinking about lately lol.