2020 has really been telling me about myself and I appreciate it so much. I have 3 more posts to this series of what I learned this year, maybe 4 if I realize something else. As I’ve said before, I want to be transparent and completely honest on here. I’m not perfect and have my flaws and don’t want to come off like I have everything together. There are people who think I have it all together and I don’t, I just don’t show too much of my frustrations online. I’ve struggled a lot with my emotions and how sensitive I am since childhood. Getting into all that is a whole other story and don’t feel like being triggered but I do let too much get to me and I do take things personal sometimes, especially with being a blogger/content creator.
Trying to get noticed and recognized online is hard and frustrating at times. There are so many people doing what you are doing and you’re trying to set yourself apart. You want people to connect with you, resonate with what you are saying and learn something from you. I know they say there is room for everybody, don’t get discouraged because there are 5 million natural hair and lifestyle bloggers out there, blah blah, blah but I just feel that not everyone is going to like your content or your delivery on things. You are not for everyone and that is okay, I had to learn that. I know everyone is not going to relate to whatever I post or write about. People don’t have to like your posts, they don’t have to share it, they don’t even have to continue following you. I had to learn I can’t it personal. Heck, I’ve been unfollowing, muting and blocking people who no longer resonate with me and I bet they haven’t noticed or taken it personal so why am I doing so?
I started letting the small little things get to me like seeing people only sharing other’s sponsored posts. I know it helps that person out but what about us who don’t have sponsorships but have really amazing and dope content, that can’t be shared? Or seeing someone who you consistently engage with, liking posts, commenting and you don’t get the same in return but see them liking and commenting on others that you both follow. Little stuff like just started getting to me and I was starting to really take it personal. I had to take a huge step back and realize just because you post it, people don’t have to like it or share it. Even if it is crazy dope and amazing, not everyone is going to like it. I had to let go of that and feel like a weight has been lifted.
It was hard to admit I had jealously and envy issues and feel this stems from that. I want to continue creating content and blogging and not let it get stressful. I love doing this and love when someone finds my content and it either resonates with them or they learn something new. It really warms my heart and keeps me going. This is my outlet to do and talk about things that I love, something just for me and I love sharing with you all. I know it is going to take some time to not take things so personal and letting things get to me but I’m headed in the right direction to change. See you guys tomorrow!